DAY 16: WHAT DO PEOPLE NOTICE ABOUT YOU?

Those who I haven't seen in years would usually notice how much I've gained in terms of size. I think that's one of the reasons why I loathe reunions. Seeing old friends or classmates and they just look at you in shock and even blurt out loud how huge you are. Even in my FB photos, some are just plain rude leaving comments like "oi grabe naman ka kadako". Well, that's quite obvious and you don't have to tell it to my face. 

Aside from my weight, people also take notice of the new stuff I wear like a new dress or a new pair of shoes. Sometimes, I get lucky to receive some compliments from them. 

So, I guess that's what people usually notice about me...I am not really attention-seeker so most of the time, people just look past me. 

Fifty Shades

Last week, I felt that I am inside a bubble that is "Fifty Shades Trilogy". I got stuck in the world of Anastasia Steele and Christian Grey...I guess everyone in the office too. I'm not going to make a book review since I don't really do book reviews in this space. Just allow me to share my thoughts and feelings about this book that created a brouhaha worldwide...

I think for a while, I fell in love with Christian Grey --- who wouldn't? He's super rich, he's HOT, he's SEXY, he's extremely sweet and even if he's f*cked-up and destroyed, Anastasia still sticks it out with him. I love their short email exchanges --- sometimes funny and some just plain sweet. And myged, how he showered Anastasia with expensive gifts, travels and just about everything a girl could dream of. Don't even mention about the sex...he just knows the right buttons to press here.

Although, I felt that the erotic pages is just too much too many and the BDSM is something I don't really fancy about. It's just twisted and hard core for me. 

But still I love the 3 books in totality I could read it over and over and over again. I can't wait for the movie --- I just hope they don't make a porn out of it.

Laters, baby!

DAY 15: WHAT DO YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?

Well, there’s a lot really. In fact, I’m not really a big fan of myself…

For starters, I admit that I am a pessimist. I sweat out the small stuff to the point of being nega all the time. Although, I don’t really blurt out the negativity into the open and sometimes I just keep all the nega vibes all to myself. 

I am pretentious in a sense that I hide what I feel to avoid hurting other people or stirring up a fight or destroying a relationship. I don’t like this about myself because it’s like there’s a huge ball that’s stuck inside my throat and it’s making me hard to breathe. 

I am a bitch. Yes, I could be a bitch for the right reasons but it’s something that I am not really comfortable with. I am known to being maldita in the office and I hate it that people distance themselves from me because of that. Being maldita is a wall that I build around myself so people will not hurt me or will keep it easy on me. 

I am very generous to the extent of leaving nothing for myself. Yeah, it's okay to be generous but sometimes I give out too much that I am placed in a situation where I am left with nothing. 

I think these are the things that I really hate about myself. I try as much to change these bad traits if you would call it but I'm taking it one step at a time. 

A Mother's Day Post

Today is Mother's Day and I am mighty glad to have Mama around to celebrate this day. In fact, she has been in Cebu since Tuesday to undergo some medical exams. The results were out and I am just scared of the findings. She has lung infection that might lead to TB. She also high cholesterol level and high blood pressure that caused enlargement of her heart. She's under medication and will need a lot of rest. We continue to pray for her fast recovery as we still want her to live long to see her children and grandchildren grow up.

Anyway, we didn't really went all out to celebrate. We just attended mass with my daughters sans the husband coz he has some stuff to do. Before the final blessing, the priest ask all mothers to come forward, said I prayer for all of us and sprayed holy water. After the mass, we proceeded to Grand Mall and ate at the girls's favorite fastfood...no less than Jollibee.

I love being a mom to my two daughters. It's such a great feeling having two pairs of eyes look up to you with appreciation and with so much love. I just hope that I am doing the right thing of raising them.

Here's what I got from my two sweet girls...

DAY 14: WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?

This is really a tough question as I don't want to sound narcissistic but as what I mentioned in this post, I will start to embrace and accept myself. Okay, here's what I really like most about myself...

* I'm not an empty shell. I think of myself as one smart ass (sorry for the language)
* I am kind-hearted. Despite this maldita face, I bleed at the sight of poor children and beggars on the street.
* I am perfectionist in a good kind of way. I don't settle for less and I would always go for awesome and amazing when it comes to the things I do.
* I am loving. Again, behind this maldita face is really a loving person. I have a lot to give to people who deserves it.

I think there are still a lot of nice things about myself that I haven't acknowledged yet. I will leave it to others to discover and unleash these nice things about ME.

DAY 13: Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?

I'm so back...I hope I can keep up with this challenge I put upon myself and this blog several months ago. Despite the interruptions, I always go back to what I really love doing --- BLOGGING! So, here I am still up for the challenge...again!

HAVE YOU EVER HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN? HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN A HEART?

I've only had two relationships - the first one with my first boyfriend and the second one is with my husband. My first relationship lasted for almost three years. He was a childhood friend. Being in a relationship for the first time, I was all positive and was in for the long haul but he had other plans and he left me hanging. He was my first heartbreak but I've moved on after that.

My relationship with my husband wasn't perfect. We had our share of ups and downs before we tied the knot. At some point, he also broke my heart a couple of times. But I guess, being brokenhearted isn't really the end of the world. And I believe that hearts really don't break...it only gets a little piercing here and there but it will return to its proper shape and will beat again.

As to the next question...yes, I think I broke my father's heart when I married early. He had bigger dreams for me but I fail him big time. I tried to mend his broken heart by proving to him that I made the right decision. I think, it has totally healed seeing what I have achieved and just seeing his grandchildren.

Life happens...

It's been a while since I last posted in this space --- how pathetic really! Facebook and life in general took much of my precious time. But I grabbed this opportunity to scribble a few words and probably continue with my 30-day blog challenge. We'll see about that...

A lot of stuff really happened during the past months. I've been preoccupied with so much particularly PAS-related. I thought this time I will only be sitting at the sidelines but boy was I wrong. The details will have to be in another post though.

I'm just glad to be here. Facebook has really become boring and monotonous so perhaps, I will be hanging in here more often.

Laters!